Music and Lyrics by Casey Rochefort
I am like a heart of glass
Do you think you need the extra time?
You can see it all inside of me
Tell it to my heart of glass again
A stained glass window to my soul
I am at an all time low
Something deep inside, eating me alive
I feel like a huge zero
Cause I only know one way to survive
Breathing is a major chore
I don't wanna do it but my body just won't stop it
I am such a thrilling bore
Telling you the same ol song with different bull shit
This and Moment were the first songs written that ended up on this album. They were both from late 2002, just after I moved in with Erik. You'll find just about everything I wrote on this album had something to do with the circumstances of my marriage ending. Though it could have been worse, it still hurt like hell. And this song was a lament of that notion. I was realizing for the first time that my chance for salvaging the marriage was slim. I had moved out thinking it was a temporary and very short term separation...
The song is structured very simply. Hardly anything apart from a bass line and drumming that sounds like delicate things being broken time and time again. In that fashion, the music itself makes a bold statement.
...and in the end I knew that my own self pity would destroy the last shred of hope... which in retrospect it did, thankfully.
Lyrically I was trying to say that my heart was breaking more each day and that much should be evident. I was willing to give all the time necessary... and I was fully aware that my breathing was autonomic... and only just.